Thursday, March 22, 2007
The urge to nest
Generally if you hear anyone talk about the nesting instinct it is in relation to pregnant women getting ready for baby.
I am definitely not pregnant.
But for the past week I've been cleaning, organizing, picking out paint, making plans for my garden, and just generally wanting to stay home and work on my nest.
Anyone who knows me knows that this is far from normal.
I think yesterday I finally figured out where this urge may be coming from. The past few weeks have been incredibly stressful. There is the grief of losing my grandma, which although it was expected has still been very hard. I keep getting the urge to go see her, and then I remember she is gone. Last week my younger step-sister was in the hospital and came far closer to death than I think most of the family realized at the time. On Sunday a dear friend unexpectedly lost her younger sister to cancer.
On top of all of this, we're refinancing our house and it is spring, which always makes we clean and plan a little.
So that's why I'm nesting.