This morning has a strangely first-day-of-school, New-Year's-Day feel for me.
All of my kids have graduated from high school. Yes, this is normal and expected, but when you've homeschooled for 18 years, it's a big mental adjustment. I've just lost a big chunk of my identity. Of course, I've known this was coming and have been mentally preparing for a long time. And although the boys still live here, they need very little from me.
I've thought about taking on a second job. I considered just finding a full-time job, but I think that leaving my job at church would probably be the change that would tip me over the edge. And in the end, no job that I would find would allow me the flexibility to run off and be grandma whenever I want.
So I've made a few decisions.
I'm going to spend some time during the rest of this year catching up with friends and family that I just haven't had much chance to connect with over the last several very busy years.
I'm going to get back to consistently walking, taking my vitamins, and eating better; all things that have gone by the wayside as I've dealt with my eye issue, the back pain from the accident last fall, and the stress that has been almost eating me up.
I am reviving my business, which has been languishing for about ten years. It's been sitting there waiting for me to be ready again.. More about that later.
I'm going to spend some time enjoying my sons while they are still here.
And I am going to soak up every bit of sun, pool time, fresh produce, etc., that summer has to give.